Frustrated Runner

A couple of weeks ago, I received a blow to my training. On my anniversary weekend, I came down with another kidney stone. The second in a year. After 4 days of pain, nausea, and sleeping, I became frustrated. I had lost 4 valuable days of training; training in the last two weeks before Cowtown. As I progressed getting healthier, I still found myself unable to eat well and constantly drained. slowly, but surely, I'm getting better.

Yesterday, I decided to officially not race this Sunday. I do not feel that it would be healthy for me to race considering I just barely now feel strong enough to go for a walk. I almost thought I could still race, but I realized it was the proud competitor in me. I'm completely frustrated and angry. I've been training since November, have already had to cut this race from a full to a half, and now I'm not even healthy enough to run it.

I know life happens. I know I'll be fine enough in no time to race again. I've actually got my next attempt at a half scheduled. I wanted this though. I've been wanting to run Cowtown for a while...a long while. I've been drooling over the bling and the course for months. I'm also angry because this makes me second guess myself. It makes me wonder if I'm really meant to do the longer distances. It makes me over-analyze everything I've done up to this point.

I'm working really hard at keeping the positive attitude up.

• Jamming to the new music I put on my playlist just for this race. 
• Signing up for the next attempt: Dallas RNR
• Looking for new race gear
• Possibly getting to wear my new Team Tough Chik gear for RNR.
• Telling myself this is temporary, this is temporary, this is temporary...

So, here's looking forward, right? What do you do to keep your attitude positive?

Blogger Apology

I hearby present an apology to you, my readers. My posting of late has been fairly nonexistent, and I feel horribly for it. Lately, my scheduled free time has been next to nothing, and when I get that free time, I’m training for the Cowtown Half. Here’s the crazy deal:

T, my oldest son, started training for the LoneStar OpenTournament in late January. He is currently a 3^rd degree purple belt with Red Tiger Karate. We’ve been trying to get him to do this tournament for a couple of years now, but since he decided he wanted to be on Team Red Tiger, he has no choice but to do the tournament. Therefore, his one formal practice a week has now been bumped up to three. The other days are used to keep him sharp and conditioned at home. Couple all this extra activity with his school projects, band, and typical 11-year-old-I don’t-wannas, I’ve gotten into “Mommy Mode” 24/7.

On top of that craziness, I'm trying to get the Cy-guy into soccer as well as some art classes. This guy loves kicking the ball as much as I do and he loves art. He really loves to be called an "artist".

Also, as most of you know, I am also an Independent Fitness Coach for Beachbody. In December, I decided to work hard to make Beachbody my full-time job so I can leave my desk job to ... 1. be home and more available to my boys and 2. begin pursuing group fitness instructor and personal trainer certifications.

So, please forgive my very sparse posting. I often start posts and often do not see them again until everything is irrelevant. I, as most of us parents, am working hard to find the right balance. I believe it is a struggle that all of us strive for constantly. Please stay posted though! The Cowtown Half is coming up as well as a couple of 5Ks, and a possible volunteer opportunity with my running! I will have plenty of reports for you, my dear faithful!!!

Thank you,